My name is Missy. I am a 41 year old wife and mama of four. I am a homeschool mama and a public school mama. For eleven years I was a stay at home mama and recently was a part time working mama. As God’s will would have it, I am now a stay at home mama once again.
A few years ago, I had a blog called Moments for Mommy. I have taken a long hiatus from blogging. Over two years to be exact. When God initially prompted me to take a break, He made His purpose clear. God has given me a purpose for writing. I write for Him. I write for spiritual healing and I write to draw others closer to their Creator.
Over the years I have become fond of many blogs myself. I used to read several actually. My day just didn’t seem complete without my daily blogging experience. What God showed me through this is the temptation for the blog or the blogger to become the idol rather than God. I would find myself comparing myself to these bloggers and often found myself attempting to me more like them, rather than Christ. Wishing I could be more frugal, that my home was as tidy and organized or even finding myself focusing more on their hairstyles, attire or home decor than my pursuit to draw closer to the Lord and grow as a wife and mama.
God warned me of this pitfall and I did not want the world to see me, but Him. I did not want anyone to aspire to be more like me…… but to be more like Him. I do not say this in a prideful way, I say this in a cautionary way. Idolatry is everywhere. Satan makes sure of that!! We all struggle with placing something or multiple things on our lives above God. Seeking after the world rather than the Creator of the world. I am no exception. I never want to lead others down the path of idolatry.
Friends, I am a mess. I am God’s mess. I do not have it all together. I struggle. I sin. I don’t wake up every morning with joy in my heart and kindness on my lips. I often wake up with sheet marks on my face, crazy messy hair, horrible snorting congestion from seasonal allergies, a very yacky two year old glued to my side and an attitude! don’t handle all adversity with meekness and grace.
We drive a 10 year old vehicle with a horrible squeal (people seriously know we are coming before you even see the car! LOL) We have a front porch project that we started over three years ago that still sits uncompleted and my closets closely resemble a scene from hoarders, buried alive!
I can be pretty selfish! don’t always place the needs of others before my own. I fail to recognize the blessings of each day and often dwell on the struggles. I don’t always love like I should and I don’t always forgive as I am commanded.
My blog is real. It is the real deal. I will not sugar coat. I will be honest about my sin and struggles as well as my crazy but beautiful life. I will reveal to you the good, the beautiful as well as the bad and the ugly. I will not let vanity rule my heart or my blog (Ecclesiastes 1:2) I will consistently pray that every word I type, every photo I post, will lead you back to Him… not me.
Yes, I am a mess. BUT messiness if part of the journey…..each morning I wake His mercies, His grace are new. Each morning I awake….. I am a woman…. redeemed.