As strange as phenomenon is this seems, I can whole heartedly attest to its truth.
That was me.
That was me before God's perfect and timely awaking in my life. In September of 2003, 13 years ago this month, I truly came alive. God lead my heart to accept Christ as my Savior, my Comforter, my Friend, my Counselor, my Guide and my Life Line. He became the air I breathed and the beat of my heart. My eyes were opened and I began to be blessed with the ability to see through and past the evil and darkness and believe in that which is good and true.
Though my heart could and can still be broken, I now trust that at the very same time it is breaking apart, God is taking those pieces and making them whole once again. Though my faith does and shall waver, I now know unbelief is a tactic of Satan and I press on toward the goal and STAND. Though my strength can and still does get drained, I now know that the battle is not mine to fight. I am able to hand Christ the boxing gloves while I fall to my knees.
I was dead. Because I had no eternally safe home for my heart. I had no faithfully strong and perfect arms to be held in, when I was falling apart. My heart beat for earthly gain and selfish ambitions and the main focus of my relationships were what they could do for me, not how I could serve them. I had some goodness in me, but that goodness was used as a tool to gain acceptance and approval from others, rather than a sincere, sacrificial giving to glorify my Creator.
Though God still leads me to walk through darkness and adversity and I may temporarily experience the pain, fear and doubt that often comes with it, I am quickly able to refocus and lead my heart home once again.
With Christ, you can shine brighter than ANY Hollywood star because in you, others find hope. In you, others will find comfort. In you, OTHERS WILL SEE AND EXPERIENCE GOD.
"Awake O sleeper,
and arise from the dead.
and Christ will shine on you." Ephesians 5:14
My friend, may you become fully awake today. May you seek and find Christ. May experience a light in your life that does not compare to the sunniest day or the brightest star.
I shine, not because I am a star, but because.... I am a woman... redeemed.
Peace and Blessings