I am far from perfect.
I have a nice variety of shortcomings and struggles.
I will never pretend or imply that I know all the answers.
Therefore, I will never close my heart and mind off..... to the One who does.
My goal is to plant deep roots into my thick and stubborn skull.....
that my job is not to understand all of God's ways..... but simply trust them.
Nearly two years ago, as I sat back helplessly watching my newborn daughter be poked and prodded with endless needles and sat helplessly listening to her scream for comfort all I could hope and pray was that her little mind could understand I was allowing this for her good. I hadn't left her or abandoned her, I was watching the entire scene with tears of pain rolling down my cheek, clinging to the knowledge that this is what was best for her, she just cannot see or understand it right now.
Through His eyes..... all things are clear.
Through mine..... all things are tainted.
Tainted by my doubt and self focus.
I cannot see beyond my pain and entitlement.
I cannot complete the entire puzzle because it is not my hand that holds the pieces.
It has taken me nearly 40 years and many, many tests of strength to finally realize there is no greater life.... than a life of surrender.
Surrender to my Creator. My Mentor. My Father. My Friend.
I walk in the path He has paved before me. He has already been, where each of my feet will land. He is my safety net, my guard rails, my life preserver and my body guard.
May these words live forever in my heart....
"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end,
they are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.
The Lord is my portion," says my soul, therefore I will hope in Him."
Peace and Blessings