I miss them.

I miss them every day.  

I see them.

I may giggle and laugh at them.

But yet I miss them.

My body and mind are still journeying through the recovery process from a very long season of chronic stress.  I am not totally sure of the science behind it, but I am finding out that even after the storms of life have passed, it may take your body and mind time to reestablish "normal." 

When you are in a season of high stress, especially for an extended amount of time, damage is being done you are not even aware of because your body and mind are still in that constant "fight" mode.  You are often surviving on adrenaline.  Kind of like running a marathon where you push and push until you reach the end but then your body just collapses. 

When you finally reach the end.... you can finally breathe and your body starts releasing that adrenaline and pent up stress you carried in order to survive.  

That is where I feel I have been for awhile.  Some days are great, others not so much and I definitely struggle with handing stress and adversity, much more than I did in a healthier state.  

I trust God in this season. I know He has  a purpose for it.  However, I find myself crying a lot, sometimes I am not even sure why.  

This morning I was meditating on one of my favorite scriptures on crying, (yes, there are even scriptures about that!!!) 

"You keep track of my sorrows.
You have collected my tears in a bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.
Psalm 56:8

God sees my tears and He cares deeply.  I don't doubt this for even a moment.  So even though from outward perspectives it may appear as though I am falling apart at times, inside my heart, I never doubt God's goodness and faithfulness.  I trust Him explicitly, though I struggle with wondering what His bigger plan is.  I still have moments of fear of the unknown and questioning when I will ever feel "normal" again. 

But even if I never return to what I consider "normal" there is purpose in that as well.  

This morning God told me that I HAVE to start refocusing my brain and one of the ways He revealed to me to do this was by saying...

Missy.... laugh.  You love to laugh.  I know this about you.  I gave you this characteristic.  And best of all.... you love to laugh at the simple things.... like "glamour shots" of animals and mindless movies. I gave you an eccentric child during this stressful season that makes you laugh every day with her crazy personality!  I know you need to cry.... but I also long for you to laugh.  I love the sound of your laughter.  It brings me great joy.  I will hold your tears.... and I will provide you with laughter. 

A peace fell upon me as I thought to myself how once again, right, God is. Every day, even in the midst of my struggles, He provides me with laughter in many forms. 

For that I am so incredibly grateful.  It pulls me from my dark pits and it's like a light just lit up the darkness in my heart!  So today... I thought i would share with you some photos and clips of things that make me laugh like crazy!!  
I pray, especially if you are needing it today.... they bring you great joy!!!!!

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend
My sister's dog Bruno (AKA Bruce)! I can't get enough of this dog when I visit! I could sit and look at his ridiculous face all day!!!
When Napoleon's uncle throws a steak at him!!!
Yes... I could watch this over and over! LOL
This... need no explanation!!! LOL
I don't know.... but my sisters and I can sit and laugh at this for HOURS!!!
Any time I can do something to make my animals look sillier than they already do... is a good day in my book!
Okay, nothing drives me more crazy than when I find a recipe I want to try and the author of the recipe goes on for three pages about how wonderful the recipe is with 5,436,943 pictures!

Ergo, I swore when I posted a recipe.... all you are going to get... is the recipe, as I would not be taking the time to post a recipe if it was not worthy of posting!!  I got this recipe from The Pioneer Woman, Ree Drummond!  

So here goes.... trust me when I say... this bread is DELICIOUS!  Especially right out of the oven!  I basically ate both loaves by myself, okay, I shared a few slices, but let us suffice to say, I got my carb fix!! LOL



1 cup Milk
6 Tablespoons butter
2 1/2 tsp, active dry yeast
2 whole eggs
1 /3 cup sugar
3 1/2 cups flour
1 tsp salt
1/3 cup sugar (for filling)
2 TBS cinnamon
1 Egg and Milk mixed together for bread topping
Softened butter for filling

Melt butter and milk and let cool until just warm to touch.  Add yeast, mix and let sit for 10 minute. 

Combine flour and salt.

In an electric mixer mix sugar and eggs until fluffy and creamy with paddle attachment. Pour in milk/butter/yeast mixture and stir to combine.Add half of the four mixture and beat until combined then add remaining flour and beat until combined. 

Switch to dough hook attachment and beat/kneed on medium for 10 minutes.  Until smooth and elastic.  If the dough remains too sticky add 1/4 cup flour and kneed for 5 more minutes.  If you do not have a dough hook you can kneed by hand!!! 
Place in an oiled bowl and cover with plastic wrap and let rise for 2 hours.  I usually turn my oven on for 5 minutes, then shut it off and place the dough in the oven.  This time of year it is too cold in my house for the dough to rise very quickly. 

Once risen, dump dough on floured surface and roll out into a 18x24 inch rectangle.  Smear butter all over dough. I don't measure this, just enough to cover the entire surface with a thin layer of butter.  Mix 1/3 cups sugar and 2 TBS cinnamon together and sprinkle on butter.  Roll the bread toward you, length rise, tightly, then pinch the ends together.  Place in well greased bread pan and cover with plastic wrap for 1-2 more hours.  You will know when it has risen enough.  

Mix egg and and about 1/4 cup milk together and brush on top of bread.  Bake at 350 degrees for about 40 minutes.  You will know it is done when you knock on the top of the loaf and it sounds hollow.  

Remove from pan and allow bread to cool (or eat it immediately like myself!!)  This makes phenomenal French Toast as well!

You might want to make two loaves, just in case!!!! LOL

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend