I thought I was prepared for motherhood.  I longed for nothing more than to be a wife and mommy.  I worked in an infant daycare  and was a nanny for 3 out of 4 years of college.  I found complete joy in holding those babies and caring for the 2 precious children I nannied for.  Garrick and I were married for 2 years before our first child was born. I read books, I took the classes, I had everything prepared, right down to the little diapers placed strategically in a cute little basket and another one filled with Infant Tylenol, gas drops and diaper rash cream!

I WAS READY!!!

Ummmm...... NOT!  LOL

I thought I was.  I really did.  And, when that I held that little baby in my arms in the hospital I felt on top of the world!  I had this!!  Nothing could shake the joy I was feeling!!  

Then.... we brought him home.  Within a day or so, the new mommy adrenaline wore off. I was exhausted.  I was sore.  I was hormonal.  Breastfeeding, the most natural thing in the world????  Yeah, not going so well.  I began to feel overwhelmed.  I would cry every night in the bath tub and feel massive anxiety as I though to myself.... this is never going to end.  I will never sleep again.  This little man is my responsibility for the next 18 years... OR MORE!  

Even a few short days after my precious little man was born, Satan had me cornered.  

I was not a believer yet and unfortunately, I lived very far away from my family and Garrick's.  I had very little support, my husband worked 15 hour days and went back to work days after Camden was born and I was trying to find may way through this overwhelming task, all on my own.  

I was devastated more at the fact that I was feeling the way I was feeling. After all, wasn't this suppose to be all smiles and cuddles?  Wasn't I suppose to be frolicking through the streets pushing my stroller with joy and peace??   Wasn't I supposed to look like those diaper commercials.... gentle, peaceful and completely in love with my new calling?

I wanted that.  I really did.  But my emotions were tearing me to shreds and not only did Satan have the vulnerability of my hormones and exhaustion to play with, he also had an isolated, new mom that did not have the power of Christ living within her to combat his evil plan!

Satan wanted me.  Badly.  Why????  For a very good reason.  I just finished a phenomenal book called Desperate by Sarah Mae and Sally Clarkson.  Here is an excerpt from the book that completely grabbed to my heart.....

"Satan knows that the righteousness and faith of the next generation are in the hands of parents, and particularly the moms, who interact with their children every hour of the day.  Satan would love for us to think that our labor is in vain and ineffective, and that we are not adequate for the task.  And yet, in every case in Revelation, overcoming is always rewarded with a great blessing." 


Satan KNOWS that the most powerful influence in a child's life are his/her parents!!  Parents are a HUGE target for Satan, especially if you are a parent that is home with your children day in and day out.  He wants to break your powerful influence over them to become Godly leaders in this world.  He wants to stop the legacy of good and take you and your children captive to do his evil will.

There is no easier way to do this, especially for an emotional woman, than to continually make her feel inadequate, not good enough, as a failure and defeated.  And what better time to start than when the baby is fresh out of the womb!  

Oh, how I wish I would have had someone to breathe this truth into me when I first became a mama.  I wish I would have had the armor and tools to stand and combat Satan's evil work in my mind.  

We so underestimate our power is a parent. Our children's hearts are molded by our very hands.  The easiest way for me to understand what my children need from me, is to place myself back as their age and try to recall what I needed.  

I needed lots and lots of love and grace.  I was a sinner AND a child with little self control and a whole lot of impulsivity.  I had emotions I did not know how to deal with and pressures from the outside world I did not know how to tune out.  I sometimes, STILL don't.  I needed to know I had purpose and I mattered and that God gave me talents and gifts to use to change the world.  I needed lots of encouragement and affirmation, especially when my self worth was being challenged.  I needed my home to be a safe haven from a sometimes cruel and scary world.  

My children need these very things and if I spend day in and day out allowing Satan to make me feel I am a worthless, inadequate failure of a mother, I will have nothing to give my children but discouragement and frustration.  

If I could do ANYTHING for a new mama or a mama who is struggling right now in a sea of discouragement, it would be this....

STAND!  You ARE enough!  God gave you these precious children because He knew you COULD do it!  TRUST Him!  Shut out the voices of the world and focus on giving your children what THEY need, not what the world tells you they need!  

You already hold the ability..... you just have to believe it!!!!

Peace and Blessings
Your friend 
Missy
 
 
If I had to name ONE thing that has given me hope when all hope seems lost.....it is these soul feeding words....

"To Him who is able to do immeasurably more than we ask or imagine, according to His power within us." Ephesians 3:20

It is extremely easy to become weary.  To lose hope. To succumb to the exhaustion from life's battles. To let Satan win, even when you are unaware that he is even behind the wheel. 

And believe me when I say, I have been there and some days, still am.  

I spend many days, almost minute by minute, asking God to guide me, help me, lead me, just take over because for my own sanity, I have to step aside.  

What is so incredibly encouraging about this scripture is no matter what I ask God for, no matter what I am needing or praying for at that moment..... God.... can do MORE!  So much more.... it cannot be measured!  We could never see the end of His abilities.  Whatever we pray for, whatever we dream of, whatever we wait in hope for....... it cannot compare to the power that rests in God's ability!  

Job prayed for God to end his suffering.... God fully restored Job's life to even greater than it was before!

Hannah prayed for a child.... God blessed her with a son that went on to serve God in might ways!

Moses cried out to God..... God allowed Moses to lift up his staff, stretch out his hand and part the Red Sea!

God can and will do more than we can even ask or imagine.

The focus here is.... trust.

Do I trust him and believe in Him to do so?

I guess that remains the million dollar question.

I pray today....for a sense of trust like you have never experienced before.  

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend
Missy


 
 
The other morning I was reading in the book of Jeremiah and I came across a scripture that prompted me to ask myself a very hard question.  I read this scripture over and over and God began revealing something to me that I had never considered before.  

"They followed worthless idols and became worthless themselves." Jeremiah 2:5

Here is the question that went reeling through my mind over and over again..... could this scripture at all be tied to the feelings of worthlessness we struggle with?  Could this scripture we tied to lack of self esteem and feeling a lack of purpose in life?

God quickly affirmed a big fat YES!  

Once again, please don't hear what I am not saying.  I totally understand the pressures and unrealistic expectations of this world greatly impact many people's self esteem and creates in them massive struggles with feeling worthy and purposeful, however, the biggest problem remains just that...... the world!

If I am chasing after what the world has to offer; wealth, beauty, success, perfect body and image OR even if I am placing all my energy into what appears to be worthwhile, Godly things such as; trying to fit myself into every "Christian" mold I believe I should fit in.  When it is very likely God may have never called me to pursue those things.... I am simply chasing after idols, rather than God.  

I am pursuing something that I believe will make me feel better about myself or look better to others, not necessarily something God has purposed for me to do.  

By doing this.... it is very likely.... it will not be fulfilling and feelings of worthlessness will overtake my mind.  And the worst part about this is... now... you will compound it with unnecessary guilt of failing at something or not feeling fulfillment from something that OTHER Christians are doing and finding purpose and fulfillment in!  

I talk so much about purpose, because I feel so very strong about the gift in finding your God given personal purpose.  It is the secret to finding joy and contentment in life even when life circumstances may create an opposite environment.  



Here is an example of this in my life.  Like most people, I go through dry seasons where I lack motivation and would just like to live as a giant sloth!  I struggle with getting out of bed to do my quiet time and Bible study and I have had morning when I laid there too long and had no time for God.  

I pursued sleep and slothiness and what I ended up with in return.... is a day of feeling stressed and lacking peace.  I missed my date with God.  This is a pretty big deficit!  I chased after something worthless and in turn felt very worthless!

I have had other days when I have laid around way too long in the morning, on the weekends.  I look at the clock and its 11:00 and I am still in my pajamas and feeling lazier than ever!  I literally feel BLAH!

For me this creates major feelings or worthlessness!  

Everyone is different, this may be revitalizing to you, but for me, I know God is calling me to move and meet with Him or be productive and I choose the slothy way instead and feel pretty bad for it later!

So... my challenge for everyone today is assess your feelings of purposelessness or worthlessness when you begin to struggle with them.  What are you spending your time pursuing?  Are you neglecting God's purposes for you and chasing after worthlessness?  

This just might be a life changing epiphany for me!!!!  I pray it is for you too!

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend 
Missy
 
 
I will be drawing the winner of my giveaway tomorrow morning!!  I have prayed that it is the person who needs the reminder the most.... that as long as God is within you, He will not let you fall!!!  

The truth is... we all need that reminder! Probably... daily.  I wish I had a necklace for all of you!  

Yesterday was my birthday, so I was a little side tracked and did not do my typical marriage blog with Garrick, however, God gave me a different message to deliver that He just needed me for this week.  

I want each of you to really ponder this scripture....

"God is within her, she will not fall." Psalm 46:5

It says... she WILL NOT fall.  WON'T!  Do you see the significance here.... if God is within you... no matter how far you stand at the edge of that cliff... YOU CANNOT and WILL NOT FALL!

There is NO greater safety net in this world!  No person, no addiction, no idol or material possession can do this for you!  In fact, those items may be the very things pushing you toward the edge!

How does this apply to marriage??  I can tell you... first hand. You may be pushed to the absolute breaking point in your marriage.  You may be crushed, spent and exhausted beyond what you believe is recoverable.  
You will never stand at an edge of a cliff without God fully equipped and ready to give you wings to fly!

Knowing this truth.... can make you the hero in saving your marriage.  It can give you the strength to keep going and this strength will be visible for all to see.  Your spouse, most importantly, will see God's strength resting on you.... a strength they can now see is a live and real.  A strength they may very well want to seek for themselves. 

There is simply no way I could have done this without God.  Period.  

I pray..... you seek God.... and get your wings... today!!!

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend
Missy
 
 
I am super excited!!! This is by far, going to be my favorite giveaway to date! 

As I have mentioned, many, many times before, one of the most precious gifts God has given me (aside from salvation) is opening my eyes to the strength that lives within me as I walk with Him.

For most of my life, I saw myself as a "weaker" person; an over reactor and a stress mess!  I have never been very good at handling stressful situations and when God sent the "perfect" storm of multiple stress inducing circumstances, I often crumbled under the pressure.  I adapted to unhealthy coping mechanisms to  try and gain back control such as Anorexia.

Well, as you probably already guessed, that never worked and only aided in making the situation much worse!  The bottom line is... I AM NOT IN CONTROL!  I never have been.  I never will be.  And you know what????

I am totally GOOD with that.  Why I would think I could handle my life better than my Creator who can do significantly more than we can ever ask or imagine, is beyond me.  For most of my life, I really did not know God, so that was the major problem.  But even when I accepted Christ, I still struggled and often still do, with wanting that control back.  Not trusting in God's ultimate plan and completely dismissing the fact that His strength.... is now my strength!  

"The Spirit of God that raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you." Romans 8:11

I never, ever (nor God) want you to forget, the strength that you hold if you are walking hand and in hand with the Lord.  You are MORE than a conqueror!!!  You are a WARRIOR!  You will NOT fall.  

SO.... without further ado.... here is the awesome giveaway!!
The winner of this giveaway will be given this beautiful reminder to wear around her neck, of the strength that lives within her to conquer each days to do list, disasters and challenges!

There is not a day that you will ever walk alone!

God is within you... you will not fall.  

"God is within her, she will not fall. God will help her at the break of day." Psalm 46:5

If there is one thing I long to do through this blog, it is to empower women (and men) in the way God desires them to be empowered... and that is remembering who they are in Christ!  The strength they acquire when they walk with Him and the mountains they can conquer with the same Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead living within them!

Lack of trust and disbelief are our biggest barriers to victory.  

I too, struggle with these things.  

May this necklace, empower you, every time you wear it, see it and feel it hanging around your neck!!

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend 
Missy
 
 
When I first gave my  life to Christ, nearly 14 years ago, one of the first things God gave me a desire to do was study women.  

I longed to know what God's purpose was for me, as a woman.  When He created Eve out of Adam's rib, what was the ultimate goal of His design.  

As I read and studied I learned that God created women with many meaningful qualities. His first goal was to create a helper and companion for Adam.  He recognized that it was not good for Adam to be alone and that he needed a partner in life.  I have often joked as to why that was the ONLY thing that God stepped back and did not identify as "good."  It was not good that man should be alone and if you have ever walked into a bachelor pad this will become painfully obvious!! LOL  

Yes, Yes, I know there are some men that are very neat and tidy, but for the most part, I have not personally found that to be the case. 

God gave women the gift of making a house a home and caring for the things, man wasn't necessarily given the desire to care for.  This is one of the reasons there will probably always be the battle of the sexes when it comes to house work.  Women see EVERYTHING that needs to be done... all the time and men can walk past the overflowing garbage can and laundry basket and not think twice.  

God also gave women the heart to nurture and care for little ones.  He created in them a maternal desire and instinct that men do not have.  This is why a woman can strategically pack a diaper bag and fill it with every possible need the baby could have, while a man may very likely walk out the door without a diaper bag at all, maybe even without the baby!! LOL

This sometimes comes across as negligence to women, but honestly, it all goes back to the difference in the way God created man and woman.  

So yes, I learned that women were given hearts to care for a home and her husband and a maternal instinct to love and care for her children. He desires for women to be modest, meek and gentle. These are extremely wonderful qualities and have the power to change the world, however, I have learned something life changing for me in my Understanding Purpose study.  And that is.... women, though created to be gentle were also created to be warriors!!

When God designs Eve, He states that He was creating a "helper" for Adam.  What my study explained was what the word "helper" actually encompasses.


If you take the word "helper" and root it back to the Hebrew meaning, it actually is the word ezer (pronounced azor) it used in the same context  as God as the helper to Israel and the call for military aid!  
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So, in laymen's terms, the word "helper" used to describe the creation of woman actually means STRONG HELPER or WARRIOR!  

You were created to be a WARRIOR!!  God created you with the strength and courage to fight every battle He may place in front of you in your lifetime!  

Most women I know ARE WARRIORS!  Though created for specific purposes, women that are left to fill both a man and woman's shoes are able to successfully accomplish this!  They will fight to protect their children and that same mama will lay in bed and snuggle with them when they have a bad dream!  

Look at your grandmother's hands.... those are the hands of a beautiful warrior!!  Each wrinkle a symbol of triumph over a struggle she may have thought she would never win!

When a man is unable for whatever reason, whether it be intentional or not, to fulfill his leadership role in the home, women are made to step up and fill those massive shoes, even though she may be dying inside, she will do it until God sends reprieve!  

Though God desires for women to be quiet and gentle, He designed them to fight the good fight when those are cards she is dealt!  

Ladies... don't EVER underestimate your purpose and abilities in life!  God gave you EVERYTHING you would need to fulfill every purpose He gives you!  Satan wants to convince you otherwise and unfortunately, we fall prey to his lies way too often!  

There may be days...you may feel like you are going to crumble into a million little pieces... but I assure you.... God made you a WARRIOR!!  

You can slip on those heals, apply that lipstick and on the way out the door, grab your sword and shield..... you.... are God's beautiful warrior!

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend 
Missy
 
 
"This is God's idea.  He made Himself the pattern.  He chose us to be like Him and to represent Him in this world.  This is the first and most important fact a woman can know about herself and her purpose.  It ought to take our breath away." 

This is a quote from the study I am currently doing, Understanding Purpose, and when read the above quote it gave me goosebumps.  I have been doing Bible studies for many years now, but for some reason, this words did exactly as the author quoted above.... they took my breath away. 

Imagine this....if you are not a seamstress... just pretend for vision's sake.... You see a beautiful dress in the window of a store.  Perhaps you desire it or perhaps your daughter would love to wear it to her next dance.  It is everything you would ever want in a dress... the cut... the shape... all the little details and accents.  You walk into the store and look at the price and your heart sinks as you realize there is no way you can afford this dress.  However, you are firmly convinced you could make it yourself for half the price!! 

You head to the fabric store and find an identical pattern. You pick out the perfect fabric and accessories and head home to get to work!  You carefully stitch and pay close attention to each little detail.  Once the dress is complete.... you compare it in delight to the photo you took of the model dress from the store and you are awe struck as they appear nearly identical.  Yes, there are some differences for sure, as the your dress could never completely be like the model dress as that one is the original.  There are some vague stitch differences and variations in the way some of the accessories were applied, but over all, they are extremely similar and you are ecstatic with the finished product!

That is US my friends!!!  God is the pattern!!  He is the original, but we were patterned exactly after Him!!  We were made to hold and contain all of His glorious attributes; kindness, creativity, patience, exceeding love, generosity, selflessness... you know I could go on and on and on!  

Truly... take a moment and let this soak in .... You were made to resemble and represent the living God. 

You weren't thrown together to just survive this often brutal world... you were MADE to represent God in all you do.  

There could absolutely, hands down, inequivocolly be no greater purpose we could be assigned!!  

This is great news my friends!!  This mean that you may have to work it at and fight your flesh big time, but you have the ability to attain every attribute we share with God.  
Here are some questions to ponder from the study.

1. How does this change your view of yourself? The value of your life and the significance of your actions? Your relationships with others? Can you imagine a higher calling?

2. How should our identity as God's image bearers transform how we value, respect and treat one another? How does this cast a vision of what we are to become?

3. What do you need most to help you reflect Him more authentically? 

Read the following scriptures to help you learn more about the attributes God longs for us to reflect;

  • Leviticus 19:2
  • John 17:21
  • Ephesians 4:23
  • 1 John 4:19


You are not just a blob of flesh and bone.... you were carefully knit together and patterned after the Almighty God!!!!  

I pray that this realization begins changing your view of yourself, your abilities, your purpose and your calling in this lost and crazy world!!

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend
Missy
 
 
1. Kind words
2. A hug
3. A smooch! (depending on who it is!! LOL)
4.A sweet note
5 A sweet treat
6. A homemade gift
7. A phone call
8. A kind text
9. A hot coffee delivered!
10. A smile!
11. An encouraging word (especially when you can see someone desperately needs it!)
12. A surprise gift certificate!
13. Sneak in and clean their house!
14. Make someone laugh!!
15. Forgive someone!!
16. Bring Valentine's to a Nursing Home!
17. Pay for a random person's lunch, coffee or dinner!
18. Visit someone!
19.Leave a message on their car!
20. Tell someone how God used them in your life!
21. Show appreciation for someone who rarely receives it!
22. Show love to someone a little hard to love!
23. Hand out Hershey's kisses to random people!
24. Invite someone to lunch!
25. Deliver Valentine's at work!
26. Dedicate a song to someone on the radio!
27. Pray for God to continue to soften your heart!
28. Pray for others!
29. Put the needs of others in front of your own.
30. Thank someone... you have needed to thank for a long time!

Love... never fails. 

Peace and Blessings
Your Friend
Missy
 
 
Good Morning!! I'm super excited to share this with you all!

At the beginning of the year I chose three different books I was going to read to help enhance my spiritual life!  The world has A LOT of knowledge to offer... but I prefer wisdom, ergo, I try to stick to faith focused material.  

I blazed through the first two books already and have moved on to the third book, which is actually a Bible study!  I have only read the first chapter and I LOVE IT!  

It is called Understanding Purpose, By Carolyn Custis James. It is a Women of Faith Bible study!  I had the wonderful opportunity to attend a Women of Faith conference many moons ago and those ladies are truly inspiring.  

The premise of this study, is understanding that God's purpose for our life is indestructible.  He had a plan for you, far before you were every created.  At He nit you together in your mother's womb, He fashioned in you all of the talents and gifts you would need to fulfill the purpose He created you for, and no matter what tragic storms sweep through our lives, that purpose cannot be destroyed.  It remains, through the floods, the hurricanes, the darkened paths of life.  In fact, God has a purpose for those things.... within our purpose.  Does that make sense?  LOL

One of my favorite statements I read is how many many try to fit the mold that they believe the world expects of them or try to squeeze themselves into the mold of another woman; like Cinderella's stepsisters, to be forever trying to squeeze into a pair of shoes that simply don't fit.

I have done that!  I have tried to garden! (FAIL)  I have tried to be super duper organized! (FAIL)
I have tried to be the PERFECT housekeeper (FAIL)
I have tried to be a DIY Queen, taking on projects I had no business pursuing (FAIL)

Those were not my shoes to try and squeeze into!  Though I have no doubt that if God desired for me to do those things, He would give me the ability, those things were not my purpose.  My energy was to be put elsewhere.   

This study will not only help in identifying my specific purposes but also, that my purposes can never be swayed or changed by environmental circumstances.  

Is that not AWESOME!  God is King over the flood and nothing can get in His way.  

This will be my new morning posts and would love anyone interested to join me!  I will post some of the content, however, if you would like to follow along and do the study with me, I will post a link to the book!  It was only $9.99 on Amazon!

Here are some questions to begin pondering....

1, What do you believe is a woman's purpose?  Where do you believe a woman find her greatest fulfillment and why to you believe this to be true?

2. What are the "what if's" in life? What changes or adversities make it difficult or impossible for a woman to achieve her purpose as you defined above?

3. What has happened to you or someone you love that seemed to put purpose out of reach?

I pray you will come along on this journey!  I would love to have you!

Here is the link to the book!
https://www.amazon.com/Understanding-Purpose-Women-Faith-Study/dp/1418507113/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1486472074&sr=8-1&keywords=understanding+purpose+women+of+faith

Peace and Blessings 
Your Friend 
Missy
 
 
I don't know how many times I have cried out and prayed to God, for what seems to be, the same thing over and over again. I often feel like a cat chasing it's tail.... a pointless activity with no end result.

It can be very frustrating and a perfect tool for Satan to use to convince you God is not on you side.  He will taunt you with the thought that God does not hear your prayers and if He does, He simply doesn't care.

Well, anyone who knows Christ and knows His word even a little bit, knows full well that praying is NEVER a pointless activity. God desires and longs for communion with His children.  It brings Him great joy to hear your voice calling out to Him. 

However, (you knew this was coming!! LOL) There are definitely way that our prayers can be hindered.  Though there is not necessarily a right or wrong way to pray.... there are surely obstacles that can stand in the way of your prayers being answered.  Let us examine these, shall we?

1. SELFISH MOTIVES- God longs to give us the desires of our hearts, scripture tells us this, however, God can also see your heart and see your motives.  For example, if I am asking for a truck load of money or to win the lottery, so I can squander the royalties away on selfishness and self indulgence, it is very likely God will not see the urgency in this prayer!  

"You ask and you do not receive because you ask wrongly to spend it on your own passions." James 4:3

If I am praying for my spouse to change to suit all my needs, neglecting to acknowledge my own shortcomings, God may very likely see there is more work to be done in your heart before this prayer is answered.  

You see, God is more concerned with your heart as you pray, than your spouses or co workers.  If He sees your motives are selfish and totally self serving, He may very likely, put this prayer on the back burner, understanding He has some work to do in your heart. 

2. UNFORGIVING HEARTS-  Here is a perfect example; Imagine your son or daughter having a knock down, drag out fight with their sibling.  They say horrible, mean things to them, possibly get physical and absolutely refuse to see the other person's side or apologize.  THEN, they mozy on downstairs and pridefully stand there asking you for $20 to go to a movie and grab some food with a friend.  How likely are you to want to hand over that money?

God is no different!  He is going to desire for you to make peace with your enemy and extend and offer forgiveness. 

"And whenever you stand praying, forgive,if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father who is in heaven, may also forgive your trespasses." Mark 11:25

Forgiveness is key to answered prayer.  God will likely not see an urgency to give to your when you are unwilling to give forgiveness He commands, to others.  

3. UNREPENTANT SIN- Okay, same analogy, little different story.  Your child has been extremely disrespectful lately.  Talking back, being sarcastic, ignoring your directives.  BUT, there is a new pair of shoes they REALLY, REALLY want and truly feel they deserve!

REALLY?  Ya, think you are going to go running to the shoe store to grace their feet with the desire of their heart!

Probably not!  

"If I had cherished iniquity in my heart, the Lord would not have listened." Psalm 66:18


Do not expect God to give to you when you are choosing to sin against Him, without repentance and with self entitlement in your heart.  

Each day, each hour, we much examine our hearts and ask God to reveal any sin hidden even from our own eyes, then humbly ask for forgiveness.  Your prayers will most certainly be hindered by unrepentant sin.  

4. DOUBT- You know, when you pray for something, but the entire time, in the back of your mind your are telling yourself, its' pointless, God will never answer this prayer?

Well, believing this lie, will very likely make the prayer hindered.  God desires for us to boldly come before Him in confidence and trust that He will answer the prayer in His perfect timing, His perfect way.  

When you pray, thank God in advance for the work He will do in this prayer request, believing and trusting He is already on the case.  

“If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord” James 1:5-7


So, there ya have it!  God longs and desires for us to come to Him with our needs, requests, desires and longings, however, He also desires to mold us into the loving and godly person He created us to be.  Rewarding us for bad behavior will not achieve His desired goal for us.  
It truly is no different than your desire for you own children.  You are not going to reward bad behavior and if you do, you wind up with a greater mess to clean up.  

I pray today, for self evaluation.  If you have been praying and praying and feeling as though you have not received an answer or your prayers are hindered..... take some time to specifically pray for God to reveal any areas in which you need to repent, or ask for heart change.  He will faithfully show you where He longs for you to do... when you seek Him with your WHOLE heart. 

Peace and Blessings 
Your Friend
Missy