The other morning I was reading in the book of Jeremiah and I came across a scripture that prompted me to ask myself a very hard question. I read this scripture over and over and God began revealing something to me that I had never considered before.
"They followed worthless idols and became worthless themselves." Jeremiah 2:5
Here is the question that went reeling through my mind over and over again..... could this scripture at all be tied to the feelings of worthlessness we struggle with? Could this scripture we tied to lack of self esteem and feeling a lack of purpose in life?
God quickly affirmed a big fat YES!
Once again, please don't hear what I am not saying. I totally understand the pressures and unrealistic expectations of this world greatly impact many people's self esteem and creates in them massive struggles with feeling worthy and purposeful, however, the biggest problem remains just that...... the world!
If I am chasing after what the world has to offer; wealth, beauty, success, perfect body and image OR even if I am placing all my energy into what appears to be worthwhile, Godly things such as; trying to fit myself into every "Christian" mold I believe I should fit in. When it is very likely God may have never called me to pursue those things.... I am simply chasing after idols, rather than God.
I am pursuing something that I believe will make me feel better about myself or look better to others, not necessarily something God has purposed for me to do.
By doing this.... it is very likely.... it will not be fulfilling and feelings of worthlessness will overtake my mind. And the worst part about this is... now... you will compound it with unnecessary guilt of failing at something or not feeling fulfillment from something that OTHER Christians are doing and finding purpose and fulfillment in!
I talk so much about purpose, because I feel so very strong about the gift in finding your God given personal purpose. It is the secret to finding joy and contentment in life even when life circumstances may create an opposite environment.
Here is an example of this in my life. Like most people, I go through dry seasons where I lack motivation and would just like to live as a giant sloth! I struggle with getting out of bed to do my quiet time and Bible study and I have had morning when I laid there too long and had no time for God.
I pursued sleep and slothiness and what I ended up with in return.... is a day of feeling stressed and lacking peace. I missed my date with God. This is a pretty big deficit! I chased after something worthless and in turn felt very worthless!
I have had other days when I have laid around way too long in the morning, on the weekends. I look at the clock and its 11:00 and I am still in my pajamas and feeling lazier than ever! I literally feel BLAH!
For me this creates major feelings or worthlessness!
Everyone is different, this may be revitalizing to you, but for me, I know God is calling me to move and meet with Him or be productive and I choose the slothy way instead and feel pretty bad for it later!
So... my challenge for everyone today is assess your feelings of purposelessness or worthlessness when you begin to struggle with them. What are you spending your time pursuing? Are you neglecting God's purposes for you and chasing after worthlessness?
This just might be a life changing epiphany for me!!!! I pray it is for you too!
Peace and Blessings